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So it is the last day of January and I have written 5249 words for the month. I plan on writing more today, but I’ve planned on writing more all month so we’ll see how that goes. It’s a far cry from the hopeful 20,000 word goal I set for myself, but I can either freak out and stress over it or just acknowledge what happened and move on.

I’m going with the latter. The closest thing I had to a second dad passed away in the middle of the month suddenly (fourteen days ago). It wasn’t expected, it wasn’t known, he went in for a checkup, was sent to a hospital, transferred to two more hospitals, had two surgeries, didn’t wake after the second one, and passed away four days later. His daughter and an extremely close friend of mine was here and I spent the following week with her (all last week). I took her to the airport Sunday morning (four days ago) and have only just begun to settle into my normal routine again.

I started my grieving process three days ago. 

I wrote a fourth of what I was intending to write this month and at the moment, I couldn’t give less of a shit. I’ll get there; I’m not worried. Instead of writing, I’ve been binge reading. And I’m okay with that. The words will come when I need them to come, when I want them to come, and after the emotional train wreck this month as been, I’m not going to punish myself for taking life as it comes.

Reading:

I’m not even going to explain/excuse why I read what I read, but here’s the list since my last post:

It was, essentially, a week and a half of grabbing books I thought would be quick and painless reads only to be left lacking before finally returning to a series I’ve been slowly reading because I love it so much, I’m terrified of overindulging to the point of losing interest.

Have to say, Tangle of Need is the 11th book in the series and I’ve read countless more short stories related along the way and I still love it as much as I did with the first book I read. I can’t wait to read the next one.

Photo by Oscar Keys on Unsplash.

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I completely forgot to post this yesterday. What a wonderful start to my new updating schedule. No pretty picture to make this post look nicer because I’m at work.

I can’t remember my final word count for last week, but I know it’s low. Much lower than where I ‘should’ be according to my word count goal. However, I’m still in the Couch to 80k Writing Boot Camp, so I’m okay with that. 

Week 8 has been going…mixed, really. It’s focusing completely on our current novel – the novel that I have fallen out of love with. All I can see are problems and issues and I’m very tempted to scrap the whole things. Thankfully, the combination of having good friends and being extremely stubborn is working for me and I’m going to push through it. Even if it ends up crap, it’s my crap.

I definitely haven’t been focusing time to writing, so that’s a problem too. I have to figure out where best to build it into my routine and go from there.

Reading

Promises Linger was exactly what I expected it to be and I absolutely loved it. Something about McCarty’s way of writing as spoken to me since I first read her eleven years ago. Absolutely loved it, but take my view with a grain of salt because I am definitely biased. 

Also (re)read Dark Prince by Christine Feehan. I read this book in high school and remembered thinking it was a good story, but the style of writing was far too flowery for my taste. Put it back on my to-read list because I wanted to take a second look at it, seeing as it is the first book of a largely successful paranormal romance series. I still stand by what I thought in high school: flowery. Way too flowery. Far too mushy for me to be able to deal with and while it was very frustrating, I’m glad I looked at it again.

Third book I read was an anthology, Legally Hot. You can read my review of it here, but TL;DR – On the scale of ‘kill it in a fire’ to ‘LOVE’, it was a solid ‘meh’. 

Not really sure what I’m going to read next. I want to binge on a few things, but I need to break up books that are by the same author, else I overindulge and then get sick of them. Thinking about hopping genres and reading Storm Front, as it’s been sitting on my sofa table for two months now. However, the person who said I need to read the series has also said that it starts slow, so I don’t know about that. 

Other options are The Name of the Wind, Cover Me, or The Chronicles of Chrestomanci. Watch me not read any of them. 

In case you’re teetering on the idea of giving the Couch to 80k Writing Boot Camp a shot, here’s an actual quote from an episode:

“Keep the fantasy within the limits of known science please, even if the idea of having a whole day free to do what you like currently feels about as feasible as mid-morning consensual buttplay with an emotionally intelligent xenomorph.”

So I mean, the question shouldn’t be if you’re going to do it, it’s really a matter of when.

🙂

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I officially started Week 7 of the Couch to 80k workshop I’ve been doing. Definitely a little late, but I took two weeks off for the holidays. It’s been a little bit more difficult to get back into the routine again of sitting down everyday to listen to the podcast, but I need to do it. Once I get it going, it’ll be easier to translate toward writing.

I’ve made the goal of writing 240,000 words this year. I have no idea if this is doable. I don’t know how many words I wrote last year, but at least 120,000. Doubling that should be interesting. In an amusing and rare misstep in mental math, I for some reason convinced myself this equaled 2000 words a month. It wasn’t until I sat down and realized why this seemed wrong that I was missing a zero.

20,000 words a month is definitely a challenge from what I’ve been writing, but much easier than the Nano months I did twice. If I look at it by week, it’s 4616 words each week. By day, it’s 658. I’ll get there. I’ll have to push myself, but I’ll get there.

I haven’t officially written anything yet so far, which will come to bite me in the ass later this month. It’s surprisingly hard to write outside of the workshop, so I’m going to wait until I’m completely done with Couch to 80k before writing separately. I haven’t yet decided if I’ll count the words written during those exercises, but I probably will. They might not be words toward a novel, but they’re words I’ve written. They still count.

Reading

My reading goal this year is 90 books. According to what I accounted for on Goodreads, I read 65 last year, but there were many I didn’t count. My actual goal was 70, but I was sucked into a manga series that has 19 volumes. In order to count each volume as a book, but still keep my original goal for novels, I upped the number to account for those volumes. As of right now, I’m at 21% of the total goal. 

The manga series I read over the last week was Banana Fish. The next book I’m going to read is Promises Linger by Sarah McCarty. I’ve been hunting for this book for years and finally bit the bullet and purchased it for my Kindle. I can’t wait.

I’m hoping to post writing and reading updates once a week. It’ll help me keep this blog current and hold myself accountable for my goals. Now, to finally create that WIP page…

Photo by Clint McKoy on Unsplash.

C280k Question:

Do you want to read what I write for the exercises? 

Is the current format working for you or have you lost interest in my journey through this? There’s no wrong answer to this and it won’t hurt my feelings if you have. I want to post things that will be of interest to you and I’m currently wondering if you would be more interested in what I write during the exercises rather than what I’m feeling afterward.

I don’t mind sharing everything. Having been on the internet this long, posting rough work and inner thoughts is something I’ve grown to be okay with. It’s a journey in my writing journey and it’s been fun to have people who’ve traveled with me.

I’ve been having this continuous feeling that the daily ‘feels’ update hasn’t been interesting and I could be posting something more people would want to read, so please let me know your thoughts! I’m perfectly okay posting my entire process during this boot camp on the blog, especially if that’s going to engage more interest.

Writeblr list with project info and tags

dontwaitforinspiration:

merigreenleaf:

Here’s the Writeblr spreadsheet I talked about earlier! The purpose of this is to make it easier for people to find your blog posts about your project, so please definitely fill in the field about what tag you use for your writing. This is intended for any and every writer on tumblr, so if you have a blog where you talk about writing, please add yourself. 🙂

There’s also a field on here that’s for tag lists. If you have a list of people you tag when you share stuff about your writing, please answer “yes” in that column. That way anyone who wants to be added to your tag list can leave their username in the column after that one– this means you’ll know exactly who to tag in your writing posts.

Please let me know if anything is not working or if you have any suggestions for it. 

Edit: I think I found a way to alphabetize, but please try to keep your name/row alphabetically in (or at least near) the right place. That way you’ll still be easy to find until I have the chance to re-sort it by first letter of the username again. 🙂

@merigreenleaf Thank you for doing this! Honestly was thinking about doing something like this myself since it’s so hard to follow people’s wips but now it seems I won’t have to! Can’t wait to add my blog to the list and check out the other writeblrs!!

Also in terms of alphabetizing everyone should be able to by right clicking the first column and selecting sort a-z or z-a. Even on mobile if you have the google sheets app and select the first column a row of options will pop up below and if you keep selecting the arrows eventually you’ll find the option to sort! And if you freeze the first two columns with the column titles and important info by going to view–>freeze–>two rows, they won’t be affected by the sorting!

Writeblr list with project info and tags

Threats

She’s bleeding.

Of all the scents assaulting his nose, only one took over his thoughts. She wasn’t even the only one in the room that held that scent, that had the coppery tang linger on clothes and skin and waft every once in a while with movement. The new bartender was rubbing her heel raw, the man nursing his vodka in the corner had scratched off a scab, and a few of the sorority sisters at the front were on the tail end of their cycles.

Nathan didn’t know her name. He didn’t know of her existence before he sat down. He was two beers into his visit before she sat down five stools away and quietly gave her order. He hadn’t been listening then, wouldn’t have known what was in her glass if his nose hadn’t picked up the sweet scent of tequila, wouldn’t have cared one bit about the way her voice lilted over his ears.

But she was bleeding, smelling absolutely, utterly delightful, and it was only years upon years of control that kept him in his seat.

“I’m not surprised to find you here,” a newcomer said, his proper British accent identifying him just as distinctly as his scent. He slid onto the stool to his right, between Nathan and the woman. “You always seem to enjoy the bars.”

Finishing his drink might have been an overused avoidance tactic, but it sure didn’t stop him from using it.

“I often wonder if maybe the alcohol doesn’t dull the nose.” The man shifted as he removed his coat and draped it over the bar. “You’ve never said.”

“You’ve never asked.”

His new companion huffed out an indignant snort Nathan was almost certain he practiced, but he didn’t say anything else until they both had a filled glass of beer in front of them.

“Would you answer?”

It was a good question. The two of them had never truly seen eye to eye and rarely got along. For most of their acquaintance, only necessity kept them civilized and even then, Nathan wasn’t certain he actually liked the man or if he simply enjoyed annoying him. It was weird to think it changed, but the animosity that used to be present when Colin showed up simply wasn’t there.

“I might,” he eventually ceded. “Depends on the day.”

The answering snort was a little louder than the first.

“So why are you here?” Colin asked instead and Nathan smiled into his glass.

“I wanted a drink.”

“And yet there are countless other establishments you could find a drink.”

He shrugged under his jacket, fingering the lip of his beer. “I like this bar. Just enough people coming in and out to ignore what’s going on.”

If he looked at Colin, he would get a good glimpse of her in the background. He shouldn’t, really. She had ordered her second glass and was steadily working her way to the bottom, but everything about her sent off a very clear message. The woman wanted to be alone.

“It’s an interesting clientele.” Colin’s murmur brought Nathan back to immediate company. “Though doing nothing for my appetite.”

He froze at the words, finally realizing that all that blood he could smell was calling Colin, too, in very different ways. The poor bartender was really working through those blisters and the man’s cut had finally scabbed over, but she was still bleeding. And the thought of Colin going after that scent sent a foul unease to the pit of his stomach.

Nathan tried for nonchalance. “Anyone in particular catch your eye?”

Colin turned and he was surprised again at the hazel he saw there. Nathan always expected a darker color, one to pull in and entice, and yet was always greeted with a light wash of color reflecting out. “Why do I have a feeling that question has a wrong answer?”

Damn, he hadn’t even tried to hide that bit of information. Turning back to his drink, he figured he might as well own up to the truth. “Because it does.”

“I know it’s not the man, your tastes don’t run that way.” Colin nodded for another glass and waited until they had more privacy to continue. “And the ones up front seem a little young for you.”

“I didn’t realize you paid such close attention to my preferences.”

“I like my face free of your claws.”

They wouldn’t be claws this time.

Colin stilled next to him, almost as if he had heard the thought. Nathan waited with baited breath as he took another pull from his beer. The buzz from the alcohol was slowly building and began the dull the sharp edge of his senses. Not terribly so, but enough that he could finally take a deep breath without knowing what everyone on the block had for dinner.

He could still smell her, though, just as clear as if he hadn’t touched a single drink.

“She’s a mistake.”

A low growl rumbled from his chest on instinct, shocking both of them.

“Whatever it is you’re thinking, don’t.” That crisp accent lost some of its form, widening and hardening into the less-enunciated drawl from Colin’s home town a bit further west than he liked to claim. He took a breath and Nathan had the sudden urge to beat the scent back out of him. “Leave her alone. She’ll only bring you trouble.”

The hair on the back of his neck was standing, muscles tense and wanting to jump, but Nathan pushed it all aside. It was an unnecessary reaction, one he wouldn’t feed. He wasn’t entirely certain where it came from or why, but he knew Colin well enough to know how to attack with words alone.

Plus, he didn’t know the woman enough to warrant a fight over flippant words.

“What makes you say that?” he drawled.

“Call it a hunch.” Colin masked his next breath from a pull of his beer. “I merely suspect she could do without your complications.”

It was Nathan’s turn to snort. “She’s an innocent. You don’t waste your time concerning yourself about anything beyond your next meal when it comes to them. What’s making you start now?”

“I care enough to keep myself safe.”

“You care enough to feed.”

“And you should care enough to be smart.”

He bared his teeth at the implication. “Meaning what, exactly.”

“Meaning you should leave her alone.” Colin pinned him with a hard stare, but not one he had seen before. “I’ve come to appreciate your presence breaking up the monotony of my life, I’d rather not see that end.”

“You know her,” Nathan breathed, some pieces fitting into place. “Who is she?”

“No, I don’t know her,” came the correction. “I simply…”

The words trailed off, but Nathan was patient. Colin liked to do this, act like he was sorting his words when really he was manipulating the situation. He’d continue—his pride wouldn’t allow him to let it go—but Nathan had long learned not to play into the man’s games. It was much easier to ignore and gain the same end.

“Something isn’t sitting right,” he finally answered, his scent wavering over the truth and a lie. “Leave her alone. You’re only noticing her scent because there’s so much of it. Any other day and she wouldn’t catch your attention.”

Something deep in Nathan highly doubted that.

The man in the corner stood from his table and headed toward the bathroom. Colin’s nostrils flared. It was no surprise when he finished his drink and followed the man down the corridor. Give him ten minutes and that man would stumble back out into the bar, dazed and pleased and all set to continue his night in a better mood.

If only Nathan’s hunger was satisfied that easily.


This is Nathan and Colin’s current introduction into the story. It’s too soon to say whether or not it will stay, but I like the moment between them.